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Loved as I Am

Loved as I Am

An Invitation to Conversion, Healing, and Freedom through Jesus 

Author: Miriam James Heidland, S.O.L.T.

Foreword by: Christopher West

Price: $12.95

Format: Paperback

Pages: 128

Trim size: 5.5 x 8.5 inches

ISBN: 978-1-59471-546-4

Imprint: Ave Maria Press

On-sale date: November 3, 2014

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When Sr. Miriam James Heidland’s life as a successful college athlete proved unfulfilling, she went searching for something deeper and ended up falling in love with Jesus. By charting her own journey toward wholeness, Heidland invites young Catholics to pursue their own relationship with Jesus.  

Although originally full of athletic ambition and goals for a career in sports news, Heidland was transformed in a very slow but deep way during her undergraduate years, moving from party girl to bride of Christ. In Loved as I Am: An Invitation to Conversion, Healing, and Freedom through Jesus, Heidland helps readers learn from her experience of seeking love in the wrong places and instead finding it in Christ. She shares her struggles—learning she was adopted, battling alcoholism, and healing from childhood sexual abuse—as signs of hope that anyone who desires to know Christ can find him and be loved intimately by him in return. By bringing readers into Heidland’s healing process, Loved as I Am provides a gentle and subtle template for finding peace and freedom in Jesus.

Features & Benefits:

  • Heidland’s conversion story has been featured in the Seattle Times, National Catholic Register, and at the Theology of the Body Institute.
  • Heidland speaks all over the country about her conversion and has appeared on ETWN’s Life on the Rock, Relevant Radio, and Catholic Answers Live
  • Loved as I Am engages young people through Sr. Miriam’s unique story of healing from sexual abuse and alcoholism to choosing the life of a religious sister.


"Sister Miriam James has blessed the Church with her powerful testimony."

"In Loved as I Am, Sister Miriam James has blessed the Church with her powerful testimony of the victory of faith, hope, and love over the doubt, despair, and lust that casts its shadow over so many souls. Her inspiring and authentic witness is proof that God wants to write his own powerful story of redemption in each of our lives."

Jason Evert
Author of Theology of the Body for Teens

"A gripping testimony and advice book all in one!"

"Sr. Miriam James has written a gripping testimony and advice book all in one. She unabashedly pinpoints (from her own pre-nun experience and conversion) the multiple sicknesses in our culture (and therefore our lives) and how to cure them.

Loved as I Am speaks in a voice that is simple and clear. Sr. Miriam is intimately familiar with the assumptions, values, behaviors, hopes and dreams of today's young adults. Her message is none other than this: God's unconditional, saving love is for you, and how it can lead you from self-destructive patterns to the true passion, joy and peace that He believes you deserve."

Sr. Helena Burns, F.S.P.
Author of He Speaks to You

"Heartfelt testimony of her journey to healing."

"Loved as I Am is Sr. Miriam’s heartfelt testimony of her journey to healing and wholeness in Christ. This book will speak to anyone who is searching for meaning in their own lives."

Fr. Bryce Sibley
Pastor and Chaplain
Our Lady of Wisdom Church and Catholic Student Center
University of Louisiana-Lafayette

"Powerful insights and lingering hope."

"I am convinced this little book will change many lives. The rare combination of inspiring witness, relevant scriptural reflection, and razor-sharp commentary offers powerful insights and lingering hope. Like watching a beautiful sunset, you may race through this book and then not want to finish it!"

Brian Butler
Dumb Ox Ministries

"Be prepared for a life-changing encounter."

“Sr. Miriam is an authentic witness of Jesus’ irresistible love. With vulnerability, honesty and beauty, she invites each of us to experience the Lord’s astonishing love--just as we are. Be prepared for a life-changing encounter.”

Bob Schuchts
Author of Be Healed

"An inspiring testimony of God's loving power."

"By weaving together the truths of the Theology of the Body and her personal journey, Sr. Miriam offers an inspiring testimony of God's loving power to heal and restore our deepest hurts. The beauty of her vulnerability opens a door of hope that if walked through will lead to new life."

Jake and Heather Khym
Life Restoration Inc.

Sr. Miriam James Heidland, S.O.L.T.'s conversion story (Part 1)
Sr. Miriam James Heidland, S.O.L.T.'s conversion story (Part 2)

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  • Author Interview (KBVM Catholic Broadcasting NW, Portland, OR)

Sr. Miriam James Heidland, S.O.L.T., appears on EWTN's "The Journey Home."